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Achievement Unlocked: 100 Follows

I’ve hit three digits! This might not seem like a lot to some. It might not seem like much at all. But, it’s meaningful to me that 100 people care enough about what I have to say to take time out of their day to follow my rants and musings. It’s been an exciting two months so far. Here’s to many more!

Thank you!

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Achievement: 50 Posts!

My last post just put me at the 50 mark! Hurrah! The more I do this, the more I enjoy it and I am developing what I believe is a healthy obsession with posting and reading your stories. Someone yesterday was try to get my attention in the airport, but I was too lost reading one of your posts and jamming out to my playlist. In short: this is FUN!

Here’s to 50 more!

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Thank you for reading!

I started this blog just over a month ago on June 20th. I was fearful of it at first, of sharing my feelings and experiences so openly, but it has been therapeutic and cathartic for me. Today, I achieved 200 likes and 50 followers!! Thank you to all for reading and for your support. ❤️❤️❤️

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Awake, Part 7

I am thinking of you, in my sleepless solitude tonight.

Awake again. I’m beginning to associate lack of sleep with normalcy. But, at least, I’m being productive.

I drank too much wine and the brain fog is settling in. But, at least I enjoyed it.

My Fitbit says my heart rate is 102. I don’t know if it’s the wine, the position I’m in, or anxiety about yet another day back to work. But, it’s Fat Burn zone, so maybe I’ll shed some pounds in my state of confusion.

I’ve discovered new pastimes for sleepless nights. One is writing my thoughts for others to read. The other is reading the thoughts others write. In some strange way, I feel bonded to everyone else who is awake right now, either because sleep is evasive or because it’s daytime in their time zone. But, strange though it is, it is also somewhat gratifying to feel like part of an unknown something.

I am thinking of you. I have been all day. You showed up in my dreams during the little sleep I did get. Now, I do not know if being awake is a blessing. But, it was good to see your face.

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Taking Requests

In an effort to improve my writing and get outside of my comfort zone and explore, I thought it would be fun to take requests from the audience. I’ll try my best to write on your selected topics or put words to pieces of art, in addition to the sporadically scheduled program. So let me know if:

1. You have a movie you want me to watch and review, e.g, see Movie Depth: Moonrise Kingdom (2012).

2. You have a book you want me to read and review. (I haven’t done one yet.)

3. You have a topic you want me to pen a poem or random thoughts about, e.g, Trust and Toxicity.

4. You have a piece of art that you want me to write a poem for (ekphrastic poetry), e.g. see Time/Awake, Part 6/Collaboration, Part 2

5. You have a song you want me to listen to and dissect, e.g. Song Depth: Heroin

6. You want any feedback on anything related to my personal mental health journey, e.g. D-Day.

Should be fun!

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Sunshine Blogger Award Nomination

A huge thank you to DM (@dkmr20), author of Pointless Overthinking, for the nomination! It is certainly an honor.

The Rules:
1. Thank the blogger who nominated you in your blog post and a link back to the blog.
2. Answering 11 questions that the Blogger asked you.
3. Nominate 11 new bloggers to receive the awards and write them 11 questions.
4. List the rules and display the Sunshine blogger award logo in your post on your blog.

My Answers:

  1. What phrase would you use to describe your future?

A Hopeful Outlook. I was just recently discharged from a behavioral health facility after six weeks of intensive outpatient therapy. I’ve done therapy for depression and anxiety of and on for about 12 years. While I will continue individual therapy on an as-needed basis, this was the first time I had completed therapy feeling like I had accomplished something and that I had made actual progress in my thoughts and coping skills. For the first time, I am really understanding myself and those around me and look at the future positively. I am hopeful that good things will come.

2. Which movie had the biggest impact on you?

Interstellar, directed by the incomparable Christopher Nolan. I love all of his movies, in general, because they delve past the action and into the human psyche. I am a bit of a sc-fi nerd – love Star Trek. Interstellar combined sci-fi and human psyche to teach lessons about human relationships, thinking, and actions. It teaches us that no matter what the world is like, love transcends everything. I was very emotional at the end. Plus, it brought us another great soundtrack from Hans Zimmer.

3. From all the things you do on a daily basis, which ones do you love the most and why?

Listening to music. I’m listening to it as I type. It’s great as background noise while working or driving. It helps me focus. It  helps me wake up. It helps me sleep. Or, sometimes, it’s useful to fit individual moods. There is music for every feeling, with or without words. It is a secondary form of expression.

4. What are you addicted of?

I’d have to go with music again. My mom says I would move in the womb when music was played, which was probably prophetic of my love for it. Music is a constant and I love all varieties. If someone told me I couldn’t have it, I do not know how I would function on a daily basis. My playlist is a surprise; I have everything from Enya to Eminem.

5. What would you change about yourself?

I went through a weight loss effort where I managed to shed 93 of 130 pounds that I had gained after college. Then, the scale started going in the wrong direction. I’d like to reach my weight loss goal.

6. What do you do to relax?

You guessed it! I listen to music! I also will read a book or watch a movie. Typically, my movie selection for relaxing will be something DC/Marvel/Star Trek/sci-fi related, but I love movies in general.

7. If you have unlimited money, what would you buy and why?

A small, but tasteful home in a semi-secluded area, with a vintage/antique decor. In it, I would also buy devices that could hold my large collection of music because I am constantly running out of space/memory. Then, I would buy every song I’ve ever heard and loved and/or that has touched my soul.

8. If you could make a movie about anything, what would that movie be about and why?

I enjoy movies that get into the mind. Likely, I’d like to do something semi-autobiographical about how debilitating mental illness can be and what the internal and external contributing factors can be. I would also get into how recovery is possible. Might be a tear-jerker.

9. What’s your biggest fear?

Failure.

10. What’s your biggest wish?

That I continue on the journey to self-acceptance and recognition of my own self-worth. This would help me understand that failure IS an option; mistakes are inevitable. But, we learn from our failures and mistakes and become better people for them.

11. What word would you use to describe yourself?

Sunshine. In part, it is because a lot of people call me that, both strangers and friends, because they say that’s what they feel and see in my aura. I also love the color yellow, which is pure sunshine in of itself. My nickname is Summer, so maybe I was fated to be  sunshine in people’s eyes. I also just feel better, physically and mentally, when the sun is out. I feel excited about the day.

My Nominations:

  1. Dread Poets Sobriety
  2. Caliath
  3. Almandyne
  4. alygeorges
  5. The Bipolar Writer
  6. joypassiondesire
  7. Utsav Raj
  8. Frank Solanki
  9. Hemendra Dibaakor
  10. Shiny Objects
  11. At the Intersection

My Questions:

  1. What is your favorite song and why?
  2. What made you start blogging?
  3. What emotions fuel your writing?
  4. What was an instance in which writing was therapeutic for you?
  5. If you had one wish, what would it be?
  6. What is your favorite movie and why?
  7. Star Trek or Star Wars and why?
  8. What are your hobbies/interests?
  9. What makes you tic, lights a fire under you?
  10. What is one thing you could not live without?
  11. Who makes up your support system?