Looking for some thoughts and motivation from my WordPress family.
I haven’t been on a date since April. Before that, it had been over a year.
I wasn’t with the last guy for more than a month. Neither of us wanted to be serious; neither of us was in the best place. But, after that first night, I knew I could be with him forever.
Unfortunately, I wasn’t enough for him. I don’t think anyone could’ve been, but I can’t wonder about that. I think he wanted it to fail because he proceeded to fuck things up in every way possible. He hurt me in every way he could, but I don’t think he realizes it.
I believe it’s time to start dating again. I’m sick of wallowing in self-pity wondering why I’m alone when I’m not even trying to put myself out there. I’m sick of spending all of my nights home alone wishing for someone I will never have. But, I’m terrified. I’m afraid of anything or anyone new. I’m afraid to trust anyone. I’m afraid I’ll be comparing other people to HB (it’s a nickname).
I’m afraid I’m not ready. I’m afraid I’ll do to someone what he did to me.
Plus, these dating sites are shiiiiiiiiiiit. I mean, what is wrong with people these days?
Any advice out there?