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It’s Time to Get Back Out There…

Looking for some thoughts and motivation from my WordPress family.

I haven’t been on a date since April. Before that, it had been over a year.

I wasn’t with the last guy for more than a month. Neither of us wanted to be serious; neither of us was in the best place. But, after that first night, I knew I could be with him forever.

Unfortunately, I wasn’t enough for him. I don’t think anyone could’ve been, but I can’t wonder about that. I think he wanted it to fail because he proceeded to fuck things up in every way possible. He hurt me in every way he could, but I don’t think he realizes it.

I believe it’s time to start dating again. I’m sick of wallowing in self-pity wondering why I’m alone when I’m not even trying to put myself out there. I’m sick of spending all of my nights home alone wishing for someone I will never have. But, I’m terrified. I’m afraid of anything or anyone new. I’m afraid to trust anyone. I’m afraid I’ll be comparing other people to HB (it’s a nickname).

I’m afraid I’m not ready. I’m afraid I’ll do to someone what he did to me.

Plus, these dating sites are shiiiiiiiiiiit. I mean, what is wrong with people these days?

Any advice out there?

5 thoughts on “It’s Time to Get Back Out There…”

  1. Yep, you should be dating already. I think trust develops over time. A month or two is not enough to give someone that much power. Be an awesome friend to someone for as long as you can. And if feelings get in your way, let it be. Who’s afraid of a beautiful feeling i.e. love? 🙂

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