From Annette.
Forgive Yourself.
This one is difficult because forgiveness of myself and others is one of the hardest things for me to do.
Here’s a list of what I need to forgive myself for:
1. Choosing my life over a religion that doesn’t make sense to me instead of going through the motions because it’s what my parents want. It’s my life.
2. My job supporting the military. I enjoy it and judgments from other people about it are invalid. God doesn’t care.
3. Being agnostic. It’s my choice.
4. Being honest. Sometimes I hurt people’s feelings, but it’s better to be honest than sugarcoat things. I’m not a lamb.
5. Literally every time I’ve drank vodka. I make bad decisions.
6. Moving back and forth between jobs and states. It’s what I needed to do to get to know myself.
7. That time at Jean’s Place.
8. That time at Parliament House.
9. Loss of friendships, especially the ones that I didn’t end. Some people show their true selves and sometimes people grow apart.
10. Every guy I’ve dated.
11. Being vocal. Different from being honest. I get into trouble and cause chaos, but at the end of the day, my conscience is clear.
12. The bad thing… It wasn’t my fault.
13. Being an introvert. It’s who I am. I don’t need to feel guilty because people think I need to have more fun or drink more or be out more.
14. Lashing out emotionally.
15. The person I used to be – angry, abrasive, brash, unkind, sad. I wasn’t doing anything about my mental health.
16. That time in 3rd grade.
17. That time in 5th grade.
18. Everytime I’ve stuck my foot in my mouth.
19. Living my own life.
20. Being me. I can engineer me. I am ok.
Oh my. Another coincidence. I have been a proposal writer for DoD too, sort of supporting US military. I think I should take a break from binge-reading your profile and sit back, trying to see if its not another part of me who writes blog with the name Lauren. Your words are eerily similar to how my own spirit feels and operates. Let me do some voodoo on me to get rid of this “Lauren” effect. 🙂
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Lol. Nothing wrong with a Lauren effect.
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Btw Lauren, is this blog anonymous for a reason or you do actually want to be connected with people via some real profiles elsewhere?
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Had no idea it was anonymous!! I’ll have to fix that. Would love to connect with other people!
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For example, there’s no pic of yours, nor any E-mail address at your contact page.
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No pic is purposeful. But if you go to the contract page it will email to my personal.
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Check now
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Wow.. you have a beautiful smile on your pic at contact page 🙂
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thank you!
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Always welcome 🙂
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